The Skinny on Things

For about 4 or 5 months now I have been trying to loose weight - I know, what 20+ woman isn't trying to loose weight. I am more so trying to be in better shape. I think most people would look at me and say that I am thin and I have been that way my whole life. My mom and my nanny are/were both thin also. I really want to tone my body and have more endurance. Of course I want defined abs as well as toned arms. Those are the two areas I really want to work on. I started out doing really well. I started walk/jogging in the evenings or at lunch and I was eating really well. I was also kind of depressed and didn't want to do anything else though. It was not hot outside at lunch time so I would walk/jog at lunch or I would go when I got home from work. But, now it is way to hot to attempt something like that. Besides that I work from 8:00 to 4:30 at one job and have to be at the second job at 6:00. I don't want to seem like I am using my second job as an excuse. I know that I don't need the job and it was my decision to get it, etc. but the reality is that I am obligated to go. Plus, I do like the job. I have tried countless mornings to get up an hour earlier and go running but I just can't do it. I get up, reset the alarm and go back to sleep. I wish I could do it! Maybe I am not a morning person for real. I guess I just have to keep trying. I hope that Chuck doesn't start yelling at me about my alarm going off twice that early in the morning!
On another note, I am loving my job at the dealership. I am still in training, but I still think I will like it a lot. I was worried about being tired at one job or another but really I am not tired. The dealership is so much different than my day job that it doesn't feel like I am working therefore, at this point I am not getting burned out as fast as I thought I might. I am, however, sleepy all the time. I think this is from my lack of caffeine after a lifetime of dependency on Dr. Pepper and sweet tea. Hopefully, it will even out soon because I HATE being sleepy! I am fine with being tired, but I can't function on sleepy.
For now, I will just keep going until it doesn't work anymore. When something goes crashing then I will re-arrange!

Friday Night Love Notes

This is the first Friday night that I will have to work since working at the dealership. I also have to work Saturday and Sunday. This should be interesting because I am used to staying out late on the weekends and being able to drink if I want to. This will also be a test to see if the 2nd job is going to be worth it, since I don't actually need the job. I wonder if I am going to feel like crap at my regular job next week because I didn't have a day off. i guess we will find out!

Have I mentioned that my husband works at the dealership, too? That's why I chose the dealership to work at. I am still "the new person" so I still get introduced to a lot of different people everyday. My name, according to everybody up there, is Emmadavid'swife. I don't mind it necessarily. Honestly, I didn't think it would be as acceptable as it is for husband and wife to work together. I kind of thought that it wouldn't really be acknowledged, but everybody knows! It doesn't bother me or anything, it is just different than I expected.

Yesterday I put a post-it note in my husband's car that said "I love you" and it had a heart on it. I don't usually do stuff this cheesy or mushy but I thought it would be a nice gesture for some reason. I made sure to put it on the driver's seat rather than actually trying to stick it to something. I wanted to be sure it didn't fall in the floor board or something. I wanted to be sure he would see it since I am doing this dumb gesture! Well, to make a long story short, he still has not said anything about it. What's up with that!? I know, I am being a girl about it, but I just thought he would have said something about it.

Well, anyway. This blog has absolutely no purpose, so I am ending it here. Hope everybody has a good weekend!

Nice People Sell What? No way

Monday, I finally started my second job. I sell used cars! Well, I don't sell anything yet because I am in "training." I would not have guessed that a used car dealership would have any training, but they do. Which, I suppose is good for me. I think I will really like this job.



This is a major dealership with over 60 salespeople, but I have yet to meet someone that I didn't like or someone who was rude or anything like that. It just makes it easier to go to a "2nd" job when everybody seems to get along so well. Granted, I have only been there for a few days and people might undercut each other left and right. Everything is different once you have been around for a while!



Until I get adjusted to having 2 jobs, this will probably be the only thing I talk about for a while since working will be my life! Bear with me. I am not a supremely interesting person but hopefully it will get better!

Steele Magnolias

OK - maybe it is just in my southern jeans but, I love the movie, Steele Magnolias. (Drink your juice, Shelby!). There isn't another movie that can make me feel so many emotions in one story. I laugh hysterically and I cry just as hysterically - not to mention all the emotions in between.

It makes me reminisce of when I was a kid spending weekends in Cleveland, MS with my nanny and aunts and uncles and cousins. Easter egg hunts, weddings... just life. We sat around listening to the grown folks gossip about so-and-so and what so-and-so did and had watermelon seed spitting contests. We even went "shootin" (firing a rifle, shot gun or other firearm at cans, trees, buckets, etc. Not to be confused with hunting in which you shoot at something living for a purpose!) and all the other redneck activities that southerners are made fun of for.

I think everyone would agree that the best part in that movie is after Shelby's (Julia Roberts) funeral the women are comforting M'Lynne (Sally Field). M'Lynne goes into a rant - "I can run from here to Texas and back but my baby can't! She never could! It makes me want to scream! I just want to hit something!" Clairee (Olympia Dukakis) shoves Ouiser (Shirley MacLain) in front of M'Lynne and says "Here! Hit Ouiser!! Punch her lights out!" This gesture makes all the women go from the bottom of the barrel, heart wrenching tears to crazy, doubled over laughing AT A FUNERAL, NO LESS! Nothing gets me to going so fast that this scene in this movie. I cry like nothing else matters and then I laugh right along with the cast as if I am really there experiencing that moment with them.

I think that scene was priceless. I often find myself telling my friend's to "hit something!" when they tell me about their bad days. I realize that Steele Magnolias is where I get that from.

I think we all need a Ouiser in our lives. If you can get a modern day whipping boy, by all means, go for it! But, I mean that we all need that one thing or person that can lighten our mood when things get too serious. Even if it is the most serious of events and the most inappropriate time. I am hoping that that's what life is really about. Those priceless, if not inappropriate, times where we are at the brink and something pulls us from that jumping off point. It doesn't have to last too long for it to be a defining moment and for you to remember it for the rest of your life!

Weekend Wrap Up

I am in a much better mood today than I was on Friday. My weekend did not start off very well but it did get better. Friday my husband, my brother-in-law and a friend who isn't so much of a friend anymore went out to eat. I was soooo tired. I wanted to stay on the couch and sleep, but, I sucked it up and went. It was awkward just because of the "not friend." It is difficult when you are so close to somebody for so long that all of your friends and family are close to the person too. Then, if your relationship with the person grows apart you are left there with everyone around you still talking to that person. It makes things so uncomfortable for me. I don't know how to act or what to say. I handled it like a very mature 2 year old! Maybe it was because I was so sleepy and maybe I wanted a reaction out of her, but I sulked through dinner. When I did talk I made sure not to respond to something she said or to look directly at her, even though she sat directly across from me! Then, when we got back to my house everybody else went outside to play with the dogs and I stayed inside & laid on the couch. Like I said, maybe I just wanted to be a child about the situation.
I was hoping to start my training for my 2nd job this weekend but the human resources lady never called me to schedule it. That left me with nothing better to do on Saturday but sleep until 3pm, which I can't ever remember doing. Even when I was younger I wasn't a big sleeper. But, Saturday I could not wake up. Saturday night it was still awkward between me and my husband so I finally tried to talk to him about it. He basically told me I was crazy and then he went to bed. It took me days to work up the courage to talk to him about this and in less than 5 minutes he was done with the conversation. On a good note though, we got up Sunday morning and things were kind of back to normal. So, I guess I got what I wanted without having to go into a bunch of crying (I did cry a lot Saturday night just not while talking to him!). So, in the end, can I really complain? I guess not. I hope that everything keeps up this way. It feels more like it used to. If I can actually start my training today then maybe this week will start off pretty good!

Emma's First Time

This is new for me! I have not ever had a true blog because nothing I say ever makes sense or goes together! But, maybe that is not the point of the blog! I am doing this as a way to keep up with my thoughts and be able to look back at what I wrote and remember the mood I was in or maybe something that happened that day. I guess, for me, this might be an emotional journal of sorts! I am paranoid, delusional, and insecure, among other things so this will be an experience for me. I will probably write and re-write everything 800 times for each entry. Or maybe I won't. Maybe I will just let whatever ends up on the screen just stay there.
Anyway... a little background...
I work at an insurance agency during the day and I just started working at a car dealership in the evenings and on the weekends. I don't know if I can sell cars or not but I am going to try. My second job is not out of financial need but because I need something to do to occupy my time. One day I woke up and everything was different. Not on the outside, necessarily. But, in my head I am a different person for some reason! I know that doesn't make sense (even to me it doesn't) but that's how it is. The "new person" can't seem to sit still. I find the need to occupy as much of my time as possible. So, what could be better than another job? It obligates me to be somewhere at a certain time and unlike a hobby or something it pays me! Now the "new person" in my head has a job too and I am kind of nervous and excited about selling cars. We (Is it funny to say "we" when talking about the "new person" in your head!!??) will see how it goes!
To make a long story short, I am starting this blog because I feel like sometimes I have to say something. Sometimes there are things that you shouldn't say to people you know in real life. Maybe I will continue this blog for a long time and maybe I won't, but for the time being it should be interesting. For now, this is all I am going to say. But, i might have something more to say later!