So Many Thoughts...Not Near Enough Chocolate

I am living off of Ibuprofen and chocolate these days. Bad food, couch surfing and stress have been the only things on my menu this week. This was supposed to be my week to re-boot and start over. Unfortunately, instead of restarting my new lifestyle, I have restarted my original lifestyle that I followed for the first 25 years or so of my life.

I have had some bad stuff happen over the course of this week and I am stressing completely. I wonder if I were following my healthy lifestyle would I be handling these situations and conversations better. I acknowledge that running/exercising and eating healthy keeps me in better mental health as well as well as physical health. With the way things are right now I am back to wondering if my thoughts and viewpoints are those of a 'normal' person. Am I seeing things the way anybody else would? I am back to the point of questioning every move I make or every decision in front of me.

The good news is that I have not slipped back into a depression. Whoo hoo! I hope that is just a memory in my life now and not something I will ever go back to. I have also not had a drop of alcohol over all of this. I am not naive though, today is Friday and before the weekend is out I will probably have a beer or something. It will not be in direct response to me having a bad day or being depressed or upset. I find that to be a good step in the right direction.

Chocolate

I am off work for the whole weekend in a couple of weeks so I am going to a friend's house for a slumber party. No, I don't think I am too old for a slumber party - thanks for asking! We are going to go running and do some strength training and then move on to the fun stuff like doing each others hair and make up and eating. My favorite food right now is chocolate - specifically brownies and her favorite food is mini corn dogs. That night we plan to pig out on both. In anticipation of the brownie decadence I vowed to not have any chocolate (with the exception of hot cocoa in the mornings. I am drinking it instead of hot tea or coffee because I don't want to get hooked on caffeine again and it is cold in the mornings when I get up!) until the slumber party.

In the past I have not ever had a problem passing up the sweets but since I have been on my healthy/running kick I can't get enough! I buy Hershey's miniatures to control my portions and satisfy my cravings, but I really have let it get out of hand.

I told you that so I can tell you this: One of the guys that I work with brought homemade chocolate chip cookies to work this morning! His wife made them and I know from experience that she is a damn fine baker! I passed them 3 times without trouble and then he brings the plate around making each person take some cookies! I took 2 so that he would leave me alone. BUT - I have not eaten them! I called my husband and told him that I am bringing him 2 ooey gooey choco chip cookies this afternoon! If I don't come home with those cookies I am in for it. Now I have to sit here for the rest of the day with 2 scrumptious cookies under my nose though.

I AM better than the cookie!
I AM better than the cookie!
I AM better than the cookie!

3rd Annual Drunkfest

WOW. That's about all I can say about this past weekend. My husband's (and 2 other friends') 30th birthday party was this weekend. It was awesome. (I think) I don't remember a lot but I have heard stories and seen pictures. There was somewhere between 60 and 70 people at my house!! I don't know how we made it through the night without the cops showing up. I would post some of the pictures but I don't know that any of them are worth it. I will decide later!

To everyone who did come out - THANK YOU! I hope everyone had as good of a time as I did.

Gabe, I know that you probably did not. Hope your face doesn't hurt too bad where Shelby hit you.

To all my work people, Whoo hoo! We had a great time!

I am glad that this is all over with and I am kind of exhausted! Time to get ready for next year. Wonder what the theme will be.... any ideas? So far, I have these suggestions: pirates, hippie, hillbilly, black tie affair, cowboys & Indians, ninjas. HA HA Any of these would be kind of funny


OH YEAH - Great news on my car... It turns out that the oil filter was not put on correctly when my oil was changed last. Therefore, after riding around for a couple of days it was jarred loose while I was going down the road and it dumped oil everywhere making it look as though I blew my engine! Whoo hoo! Had the oil changed again and went ahead and had the spark plugs replaced and voila! Almost like new.